I can’t even begin to tell you how many times I have told myself that I am not ready for something in order to avoid doing it. Of course I never looked at it quite in that way. This reasoning was a mask; I would convince myself I was being gentle and caring to myself by not pushing myself forward into things that may be too difficult or transformative as if in time, I could handle it better. And ya, maybe sometimes I was right to hold back, but it has never and will never be necessary. I am a strong and capable woman. Anything that I can dream of doing, I can do. And better yet, anything I am afraid to do, I can conquer. It’s wild how sometimes all you need is a little time (and the wisdom that comes along with it) to realize you’ve always had what it takes. I am sitting here now, looking back at all the times in my life that I have held myself back from taking leaps and they are honestly some of the closest things I have to “regret”. Last year was by far the toughest year of my life. And looking back I can see it was because I convinced myself that I wasn’t ready for the next chapter of my life. I was grasping so desperately to a “me” that wanted to die and a life that was already over and I was only putting myself through a self-created hell… all in the name of “not being ready”.
When living a spiritually progressive life, holding ourselves back can be just as damaging as walking backwards. It can hurt worse than never making any progress to begin with. At least this has been my experience. It’s as if knowing what we need to do to heal and grow, and not doing it will haunt and taunt us until we break and have no choice but to do it. So why not just stay on track? Why is it that most of us know exactly what makes us feel good but can’t seem to find the energy or time to make it a priority? I am sure this a question that has been pondered as long as humans have been thinking. Why do we hold ourselves back from our utmost potential? Isn’t that why we are here? To find and master our gifts and offer them to the world? Aren’t we here to experience all that life has to offer? Isn’t life about progression and growth? I think the answers to these questions will vary depending on who you ask. But I prefer to be a part of a community that can unanimously answer YES to all of the above.
I know so many beautiful and powerful people in my life fall short to the excuse of “I’m not ready”. And I have to admit that it hurts, because I AM READY! It may have taken me some time and psychological hiccups to get here, but I am ready for all of it. No fear. No questions. No doubt. I am ready to know who I am EVEN if it’s not who my ego wants me to be. I am ready to find my purpose and truth EVEN if it means everything I think now is wrong. I am ready because in the end, it’s not really about just me. I owe it to all my relations and to the whole world to be the greatest ME I can be.
“Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our greatest fear that that we are powerful beyond measure.”
-Written by Danielle LoPresti